HALF TO LIFE EP – LYRICS

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They caught the runner
Been getting bored
Of eating themselves so they turn to each other
No one is blameless
No one is safe
They scorched the earth now they’re circling their prey

They have no mercy for the beast
They drag him out into the streets
And let him have it, they let him have it
I try to keep him underneath
But if I ever crack the cage and let him free
Then have no mercy, have no mercy on me

Full and unfettered
I watched the hoard
Making mountains of molehills and lions of lepers
Calm and complicit
They raised their swords and slowly started sharpening their teeth
I see myself in every side
And everyones singing

They have no mercy for the beast
They drag him out into the streets
And let him have it, they let him have it
I try to keep him underneath
But if I ever crack the cage and let him free
Will you have mercy, will you have mercy on me

I opened up to the next blank page
Five years separated from the one before
To try to figure out the empty space

The hours passed and the ink ran red
Blood spilling from the page onto the floor
Cause as it turns out nothing’s changed

Cause I’m not free of it
I was shattered on the concrete
Stuck behind a smokescreen, choking
I waited for the all clear, hoping it was safe to
Breathe again
In the years that followed it felt like I had died
And only come back half to life, half to life

I still can’t see the end
I’m afraid and I don’t know if I can take much more
I need this to be okay

So lets build it up again
Run it back, run it back just this once more
But nothing ever changes, nothing’s changed

I went deep in the blue
But all I got was salt in the wound
I floated flat on my back
And tried to wait for the break in the storm
As wave after wave after wave after wave
Pulled me deeper and deeper down

I made my momma cry and her heart’s the same as mine
I wasn’t prepared for what I’d lose when I gave it up
I don’t know how to die, and I don’t how to live a lie
But the fire in me’s cold
My decrees were once verbose but

I lost my throat in the divorce
I lost my soul
I don’t know who I am anymore, so tell me

If all this dust inside of me
Fell from a star, or fell from anything at all
Then does it even matter
If everything that I believe
Abandoned me could I ever believe in anything at all

All I’ve done is shake my anxiety awake
The space that’s holds me safe is smaller still
I burned the tree but kept the leaves
Now both sides are haunting me
I’m in a nightmare I can’t escape
I try to scream myself awake

But I lost my throat in the discourse
I lost my soul
I don’t know who I am anymore, so tell me

I feel like I’m looking on
My own coronation
From every vantage point but my own
It’s taken me too long
To feel the ramifications
Of all the things I’ve gained and lost

I’ve tried to fix my blurry eyes
And get the perspective right
And take back what is mine

I see the breaking rise of morning
My pupils start to dilate, my headaches giving way to dreams again
I’m gonna take back what you owe me
A lifetime lost from looking on
Through out of focus lenses, not again
I can see the light
It looks different than I thought but that’s alright

I feel like I’m looking on
My own ordination
Filled with certainty that’s not my own
I feel like I’ve undergone
A tepid transformation
Now I don’t recognize my face

I’ve tried to see from the other side
And get the reflection right
And take back what is mine

After all these years of false veneers, it’s finally time